books I've read
Listed in the order I read them. Asterisks indicate rereads.
2024
Our Strangers (2023) Lydia Davis
The Second Self by Alan Rossi
Life After Life (1975) by Raymond A. Moody
Molly (2023) by Blake Butler
M.C. Escher: The Graphic Work (2016)
Bitter Water Opera (2024) by Nicolette Polek
Closer to the Light: Learning from the Near-death Experiences of Children (1990) by Melvin Morse
Materialism: A Historical and Philosophical Inquiry (2019) by Robin Gordon Brown and James Ladyman
Notes on Shapeshifting (2022) by Gabi Abrao
Evidence of the Afterlife: The Science of Near-Death Experiences (2010) by Jeffrey Long
On Life After Death (1991) by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
You Are Important by Noah Cicero
Otherworld Journeys: Accounts of Near-Death Experience in Medieval and Modern Times (1988) by Carol Zaleski
Dying to Meet Them: One Woman's Incredible Journey from NDE to UAP (2023) by Mindy Tautfest
Girl Storm: A Memoir of Chaos, Humor, and Resilience in the Path of Profound Autism (2023) by Peg Kerswell
Poisoning for Profits: Why So Many of Us Are Sick and Dying Young (2017) by Grant Genereux
After: A Doctor Explores What Near-Death Experiences Reveal about Life and Beyond (2021) by Bruce Greyson
*Tao Te Ching (1993), translated by Stephen Addiss and Stanley Lombardo
Journeys Out of the Body (1971) by Robert Monroe
Ultimate Journey (1994) by Robert Monroe
Pan (2025) by Michael Clune
My Altered States: A Doctor’s Extraordinary Account of Trauma, Psychedelics, and Spiritual Growth (2024) by Rick Strassman
Blessing in Disguise: Another Side of the Near-Death Experience (2000) by Barbara Rommer
Thanks For Letting Me Share by Brad Phillips
Liars (2024) by Sarah Manguso
*Astrological World Cycles (1933) by Laurie Pratt
Crete (1966) by Nicolas Platon
Unshrunk: A Story of Psychiatric Treatment Resistance (2025) by Laura Delano
Impressions of Near-Death Experiences: Quotations From Over 100 Experiencers (2023) by Robert Chistrophor Coppes
Goddesses: Mysteries of the Feminine Divine (2013) by Joseph Campbell
Saved by the Light: The True Story of a Man Who Died Twice and the Profound Revelations He Received (2008) by Dannion Brinkley
The Voyeurs (2012) by Gabrielle Bell
The Domestic Cat: The Biology of Its Behaviour (2000) by Dennis C. Turner, Paul Bateson, editors
Health and Safety: A Breakdown (2024) by Emily Witt
The Mind of the Cat (1990) by Gary Brodsky
The Education of Koko (1981) by Francine Patterson
Bitter Texas Honey (2025) by Ashley Whitaker
Perfume & Pain (2024) by Anna Dorn
The Cat: A Complete Authoritative Compendium of Information About Domestic Cats (1977) by Muriel Beadle
Blood Will Out: The True Story of a Murder, a Mystery, and a Masquerade (2014) by Walter Kirn
Return to Life: Extraordinary Cases of Children Who Remember Past Lives (2013) by Jim Tucker
2023
*In Search of Chopin (1951) by Alfred Cortot
The Songs of Distant Earth (1986) by Arthur C. Clarke
The Fourth Phase of Water: Beyond Solid, Liquid, and Vapor (2013) by Gerald H. Pollack
Star Trek: First Contact (1996) by John Vornholt
Dopamine Nation: Finding Balance in the Age of Indulgence (2021) by Anna Lembke
Switch on Your Brain: The Key to Peak Happiness, Thinking, and Health (2013) by Caroline Leaf
Animals Make Us Human: Creating the Best Life for Animals (2009) by Temple Grandin
The Forest People: A Study of the Pygmies of the Congo (1961) by Colin Turnbull
The Recipe for Living Without Disease (2002) by Aajonus Vonderplanitz
Reproduction (2023) by Louisa Hall
Animals in Translation: Using the Mysteries of Autism to Decode Animal Behavior (2005) by Temple Grandin and Catherine Johnson
Rockefeller Medicine Men: Medicine and Capitalism in America (1981) by Brown E. Richard
The Big Fat Surprise: Why Butter, Meat & Cheese Belong in a Healthy Diet (2014) by Nina Teicholz
How Not to Kill Yourself (2023) by Clancy Martin
The Mountain People (1972) by Colin Turnbull
The Truth About Contagion: Exploring Theories of How Disease Spreads (2021) by Thomas Cowan and Sally Fallon Morrell
We Want to Live: The Primal Diet (2005) by Aajonus Vonderplantiz
Human Heart, Cosmic Heart: A Doctor's Quest to Understand, Treat, and Prevent Cardiovascular Disease (2016) by Thomas Cowan
Cancer: A Disease of Civilization? (1960) by Vilhjalmur Stefansson
Endgame (2011) by Frank Brady
**The Twenty-Four Hour Mind (2011) by Rosalind D. Cartwright
Eggtooth (2023) by Jesse Nathan
Iggy Horse (2023) by Michael Earl Craig
Melatonin: Miracle Molecule (2021) by John Lieurance
Aberration in the Heartland of the Real: The Secret Lives of Timothy McVeigh (2016) by Wendy S. Painting
*Why We Sleep (2017) by Matthew Walker
Ceres Colony Cavalier: A True Account of One Man's Twenty Year Abduction (2021) by Tony Rodrigues
*Enzyme Nutrition (1985) by Edward Howell
Alien Abduction of the Wyoming Hunter (2017) by Margery Higdon
The Art of You: The Essential Guidebook for Reclaiming Your Creativity (2023) by James McCrae
Hunza Land: The Fabulous Health and Youth Wonderland of the World (1960) by Allen Banik
A New Breed: Satellite Terrorism in America (2009) by John Hall
Mars Review of Books, issue 3 (2023) edited by Noah Kumin
Inappropriate (2020) by Gabrielle Bell
Project Starmaker (2023) by Tony Rodrigues and Jackie Kenner
White (2019) by Bret Easton Ellis
Alien Information Theory: Psychedelic Drug Technologies and the Cosmic Game (2019) by Andrew R. Gallimore
Wizard of the Upper Amazon: The Story of Manuel Cordova-Rios (1971) by F. Bruce Lamb
Scammer (2023) by Caroline Calloway
Alien Planet (1962) by Fletcher Pratt
I Am Homeless If This Is Not My Home (2023) by Lorrie Moore
The Cause and Cure of Malocclusion (2020) by John Mew
We Discovered Alien Bases on the Moon (1981) by Fred Steckling
Muscle Man by Jordan Castro
How Anthropology Informs the Orthodontic Diagnosis of Malocclusion's Causes (1999) by Robert S. Corruccini
Death Egg (2023) by Nathaniel Duggan
Return: A Journey Back to Living Wild (2023) by Lynx Vilden
My One-Hour Comedy Special by Elizabeth Ellen
With My Back to the World (2023) by Victoria Chang
The White Album (1979) by Joan Didion
*Almost No Memory (1997) by Lydia Davis
My First Book (2023) by Honor Levy
Silica Savvy Solutions for Healthy Living (2013) by Tui Rose
Ill Nature: Rants and Reflections on Humanity and Other Animals (2001) by Joy Williams
Gift from the Sea (1955) by Anne Morrow Lindbergh
Dogs That Know When Their Owners Are Coming Home: And Other Uexplained Powers of Animals (1999) by Rupert Sheldrake
Alphabetical Diaries (2024) by Sheila Heti
Fudge (2023) by Andrew Weatherhead
2022
Mice 1961 by Stacey Levine
Exalted (2022) by Anna Dorn
Geology (1991) by Frank H. T. Rhodes
*Cat's Cradle (1963) by Kurt Vonnegut
Wandering Star by Tommy Orange
The Structure of Scientific Revolutions (1962) by Thomas S. Kuhn
*Sad Pictures for Children (2014) by Simone Veil
Conceptions of Cosmos: From Myths to the Accelerating Universe: A History of Cosmology (2007) by Helge S. Kragh
Principia Mathematica 2: A Complete Toolkit for Hacking the Physical Universe (2021) by David de Hilster & Robert de Hilster
The Electric Universe (2007) by Wallace Thornhill & David Talbott
Cosmic View: The Universe in 40 Jumps (1957) by Kees Boeke
Plague of Corruption (2020) by Judy Mikovits & Kent Heckenlively
Bankrupting Physics: How Today's Top Scientists are Gambling Away Their Credibility (2013) by Alexander Unzicker & Sheilla Jones
On the Infinite, the Universe and the Worlds: Five Cosmological Dialogues (1584) by Giordano Bruno, translated by Scott Gosnell
Sad Sad Boy (2022) by Michael O'Brien
How to Laugh in Ironic Amusement During Your Existential Crisis (2021) by James McCrae
Tesla: Man Out of Time (1981) by Margaret Cheney
*The Novelist (2022) by Jordan Castro
They Ate the Children First by Madeline Cash
The Quantum Ten: A Story of Passion, Tragedy, Ambition and Science (2008) by Sheilla Jones
Little Dalmatia by Madeline Cash
From the Closed World to the Infinite Universe (1957) by Alexandre Koyré
Baseless (2020) by Nicholson Baker
Life Is Everywhere (2022) by Lucy Ives
Architects of Self-Destruction: The Oral History of Leftöver Crack (2021) by Brad Logan & John Gentile
The Life of the Mind (2021) by Christine Smallwood
Lost Star of Myth and Time (2005) by Walter Cruttenden
Astrological World Cycles (1933) by Laurie Pratt
Forever Magazine, issue 3 (2022)
OMG THE DAY (2022) by Theo Thimo
Tasha (2022) by Brian Morton
Islands in the Sky (1952) by Arthur C. Clarke
Aesthetica (2022) by Allie Rowbottom
**The Easter Parade (1976) by Richard Yates
Horseshoes (2022) by Shawn Michael Sullivan
Suddenly Myself in a Real World Yet Again (2022) by Shawn Michael Sullivan
The Cosmic War: Interplanetary Warfare, Modern Physics and Ancient Texts (2007) by Joseph P. Farrell
Tell Me I'm An Artist (2022) by Chelsea Martin
NeuroTribes: The Legacy of Autism and the Future of Neurodiversity (2015) by Steve Silberman
The New Me (2019) by Halle Butler
2001: A Space Odyssey (1968) by Arthur C. Clarke
Mars Review of Books, issue 1 (2022) by Noah Kumin (editor)
Imagine You Are An Aluminum Atom: Discussions With Mr. Aluminum (2020) by Christopher Exley
***Taipei (2013) by Tao Lin
2010: Odyssey Two (1982) by Arthur C. Clarke
The Age of Autism: Mercury, Medicine, and a Man-made Epidemic (2010) by Dan Olmsted and Mark Blaxill
*Eat When You Feel Sad (2001) by Zachary German
2016: Odyssey Three (1987) by Arthur C. Clarke
3001: The Final Odyssey (1997) by Arthur C. Clarke
I Fear My Pain Interests You (2022) by Stephanie LaCava
Dark, Clear, Salt (2020) by Lamorna Ash
*I Fear My Pain Interests You (2022) by Stephanie LaCava
Animal Blood, issue 4 (2002)
Infantile Autism: The Syndrome and Its Implications for a Novel Theory of Behavior (2015 edition) by Bernard Rimland
Truth Is Fragmentary (2014) by Gabrielle Bell
*The Fat of the Land (1946) by Vilhjálmur Stefánsson
A Garden of Creatures (2022) by Sheila Heti and Esmé Shapiro
Bailey's Cafe (1992) by Gloria Naylor
Sick (2018) by Porochista Khakpour
Exquisite Mariposa (2019) by Fiona Alison Duncan
My Life with the Eskimo (1913) by Vilhjamur Stefansson
JFK vs. Predator (2022) by Stacey Levine
*bearfish (2009) by Sarah Schneider
Mama Day (1988) by Gloria Naylor
*Our Last Year (2022) by Alan Rossi
The Carnivore Code (2020) by Paul Saladino
Angel & Hannah (2021) by Ishle Yi Park
Night Life: Explorations in Dreaming (1977) by Rosalind D. Cartwright
Food & Spirits (2022) by Whitney Claflin
Death Valley by Melissa Broder
Mars Review of Books, issue 2 (2022) by Noah Kumin (editor)
Diary of a Lost Girl: The Autobiography of Kola Boof (2003) by Kola Boof
The Lost World of the Kalahari (1958) by Laurens van der Post
Island Time (2022) by Olivia Kan-Sperling
Toxic Superfoods: How Oxalate Overload Is Making You Sick—And How to Get Better (2022) by Sally K. Norton
[untitled novel] by Matthew Davis
Dear Nico: The Diary of Elizabeth Ellen (2022) by Elizabeth Ellen
The Heart of the Hunter: Customs and Myths of the African Bushman (1961) by Laurens van der Post
Carnivore Cure: The Ultimate Elimination Diet to Attain Optimal Health (2020) by Judy Cho
Wild Kingdom (2021) by Noah Cicero
The Incantations of Daniel Johnston (2016) by Ricardo Cavolo and Scott McClanahan
I See Satan Fall Like Lightning (1999) by Rene Girard
*Trip: Psychedelics, Alienation, and Change (2018) by Tao Lin
I Hope You Enjoy the Food (2022) by Zac Smith
Odd John (1935) by Olaf Stapledon
Thinking in Pictures: My Life with Autism (1995) by Temple Grandin (2006 edition)
Year of the Rat: Disease, Deception, and Discovery in Paradise (2022) by Kaye Howe
Forever Magazine, issue 4 (2020)
Getting the Love You Want (2019) by Harville Hendrix and Helen LaKelly Hunt
Everything Is Totally Fine by Zac Smith
Seeing Red: Redshifts, Cosmology and Academic Science (1998) by Halton Arp
Exit, Carefully (2021) by Elizabeth Ellen
Blue Vapor by Anna Dorn
Who Built the Moon? (2005) by Christopher Knight and Alan Butler
The Lost Worlds of 2001 (1972) by Arthur C. Clarke
Hawai'i One Summer (1987) by Maxine Hong Kingston
Milk Fed (2021) by Melissa Broder
Infinite Universe Theory (2017) by Glenn Borchardt
Bad Lawyer: A Memoir of Law and Disorder (2021) by Anna Dorn
*Everything Is Totally Fine by Zac Smith
Flush (1933) by Virginia Woolf
Dark Mission: The Secret History of NASA (2009) by Richard C. Hoagland and Mike Bara
Fuccboi by Sean Thor Conroe
Fake Accounts (2021) by Lauren Oyler
My Mind is Not a Billboard (2021) by Sam Pink
The Hunt for Zero Point: Inside the Classified World of Antigravity Technology (2001) by Nick Cook
The Fourth Dimension (1984) by Rudy Rucker
The Hole (2020) by Hiroko Oyamada
Covert Wars and Breakaway Civilizations (2012) by Joseph P. Farrell
Twelve Cannabis-Verses in Arabic from the 13th-15th Centuries (2021) by Adam C. Bremer-McCollum
Ain't I a Woman: Black Women and Feminism (1981) by bell hooks
All About Love: New Visions (2000) by bell hooks
Raising Cats Naturally (2003) by Michelle T. Bernard
The Healing Power of UFOs: 300 True Accounts of People Healed by Extraterrestrials (2019) by Preston Dennett
**Everything Is Totally Fine by Zac Smith
Technology of the Gods: The Incredible Science of the Ancients (2000) David Hatcher Childress
***Eeeee Eee Eeee (2007) by Tao Lin
Two Million Shirts (2021) by Zac Smith and Giacomo Pope
Jacket Weather (2021) by Mike Decapite
Very Cold People (2022) by Sarah Manguso
bro please i'm so dead get me that fuckin cheesesteak bro please man please by Cavin Bryce Gonzalez
Witchcraft and the Gay Counterculture (1978) by Arthur Evans
Secrets of the Unified Field: The Philadelphia Experiment, the Nazi Bell, and the Discarded Theory (2008) by Joseph P. Farrell
People from My Neighborhood (2021) by Hiromi Kawakami
The Will to Change: Men, Masculinity, and Love (2004) by bell hooks
Mons Pubis (2021) by Willis Plummer
Paul Dirac: The Man and His Work (1998) by Pais, Jacob, Olive, Atiyah
l-theanine by Willis Plummer
Body High (2021) by Jon Lindsey
*Bad Lawyer: A Memoir of Law and Disorder (2021) by Anna Dorn
The Inner Life of Cats: The Science and Secrets of Our Mysterious Feline Companions (2017) by Thomas McNamee
Microcosm and Medium: The Cosmic Implications and Agenda of Mind Control Technologies (2018) by Joseph P. Farrell
The Gate: A Memoir of Love and Reflection (2000) by Riane Eisler
UFOs and Nukes: Extraordinary Encounters at Nuclear Weapons Sites (2017) by Robert Hastings
Imago (1989) by Octavia Butler
Undrowned: Black Feminist Lessons from Marine Mammals (2020) by Alexis Pauline Gumbs
The End of the Day (2020) by Bill Clegg
***Everything Is Totally Fine by Zac Smith
Planet Earth: The Latest Weapon of War (2000) by Rosalie Bertell
Darwin's Doubt: The Explosive Origin of Animal Life and the Case for Intelligent Design (2013) by Stephen C. Meyer
I Could Be Your Neighbor, Isn't That Horrifying? (2020) by Cavin Bryce Gonzalez
A Completely Nonexistent Carnival (2021) by Cavin Bryce Gonzalez
Returning the Sword to the Stone (2021) by Mark Leidner
Sitting in Oblivion: The Heart of Daoist Meditation (2010) by Livia Kohn
The Red Zone (2022) by Chloe Caldwell
Toxic Legacy: How the Weedkiller Glyphosate is Destroying Our Health and the Environment (2021) by Stephanie Seneff
The Higgs Fake: How Particle Physics Fooled the Nobel Committee (2013) by Alexander Unzicker
Nurturing Our Humanity: How Domination and Partnership Shape Our Brains, Lives, and Future (2019) by Riane Eisler and Douglas P. Fry
*All About Love: New Visions (2000) by bell hooks
The Chairs Are Where the People Go: How to Live, Work, and Play in the City (2011) by Misha Glouberman with Sheila Heti
1996 (2005) by Gloria Naylor
*Pure Colour (2022) by Sheila Heti
The Tragedy of the Moon (1973) by Isaac Asimov
Superdoom (2021) by Melissa Broder
Gateway 2000 & Other Poems (2020) by Mike Andrelczyk
Last Resort (2022) by Andrew Lipstein
Leave Society (2021) by Tao Lin
The Oxherding Pictures by Alan Rossi
The Real Wealth of Nations: Creating a Caring Economy (2007) by Riane Eisler
****Everything Is Totally Fine (2021) by Zac Smith
Pay Attention (2020) by John Horgan
The Goddess and the Bull (2006) by Michael Balter
*The Chalice and the Blade (1987) by Riane Eisler
You Are The Snake by Juliet Escoria
Hawaii Driver's Manual
Big Bang: The Origin of the Universe (2004) by Simon Singh
Notfinity Process (2021) by George S. Coyne
Eureka (1848) by Edgar Allan Poe
Forever Magazine, issue 2 (2021)
A Brief History of Time (1988) by Stephen Hawking
*Worlds-Antiworlds (1966) by Hannes Alfvén
Hidden Energy: Tesla-inspired Inventors and a Mindful Path to Energy Abundance (2019) by Jeane Manning and Susan Manewich
The End of War (2012) by John Horgan
The Partnership Way (1990) by Riane Eisler and David Loye
Jell-O Girls (2018) by Allie Rowbottom
Pamela & Louie (2019) by David Heatley
Dissolution: No-Fault Divorce, Marriage, and the Future of Women (1977) by Riane Eisler
Hello Friend We Missed You (2020) by Richard Owain Roberts
*Imaginary Museums (2020) by Nicolette Polek
*The Twenty-Four Hour Mind (2010) by Rosalind Cartwright
**but did you die? by Precious Okoyomon
The Big Bang Never Happened (1991) by Eric J. Lerner
Slugs and Snails (2016) by Robert Cameron
Sun and Steel (1968) by Yukio Mishima
Problems (2016) by Jade Sharma
The Songs of the South: An Ancient Chinese Anthology of Poems (2011)
Pets (2020) edited by Jordan Castro
Logue [yellow] (2019) edited by David Fishkind
Raking Leaves (2019) by Joseph Grantham
Territory of Light (2019) by Yuko Tsushima
*Concrete (1982) by Thomas Bernhard
The Civilization of the Goddess (1991) by Marija Gimbutas
Mountain Road, Late at Night (2020) by Alan Rossi
Hawaiian Reptiles and Amphibians (1978) by Sean McKeown
Sachie, A Daughter of Hawai'i (1977) by Patsy Sumie Saiki
Dreamland (2019) by Bob Lazar
Qualification (2019) by David Heatley
The Hutchison File (1996) by The Planetary Association For Clean Energy
Starlight, Starbright: Are Stars Conscious? (2015) by Greg Matloff and C Bangs
Why We Sleep (2017) by Matthew Walker
*The Big Bang Never Happened (1991) by Eric J. Lerner
The Dominant Animal (2020) by Kathryn Scanlan
After Denver (2020) by Big Bruiser Dope Boy
NOON (2020) edited by Diane Williams
Atom, Man, and the Universe (1969) by Hannes Alfvén
Hagakure (2014) by Yamamoto Tsunetomo
The Tao of Zen (1994) by Ray Grigg
The Sky Contains the Plans (2020) by Matthew Rohrer
Vagablonde (2020) by Anna Dorn
Like a Champion (2018) by Vincent Chu
**Break It Down (1986) by Lydia Davis
The Sacred Depths of Nature (2000) by Ursula Goodenough
Lieh-Tzu (1995) translated by Eva Wong
Empathy (1992) by Sarah Schulman
The Town (2020) by Shaun Prescott
Hongshan Jade Treasures (2012) by David C. Anderson
Taoist Teachings: The Book Of Lieh Tzu (1912) translated by Lionel Giles
Games Zen Masters Play (1976) by R.H. Blyth
Who We’re Reading When We’re Reading Murakami (2020) by David Karashima
Cold Times (2017) by Anita Bailey
**Chilly Scenes of Winter (1976) by Ann Beattie
Breath (2020) by James Nestor
Soft Damage by Kristen Iskandrian
Be Brief and Tell Them Everything by Brad Listi
Our Last Year by Alan Rossi
The Sirius Mystery (1998) by Robert Temple
Something Gross by Big Bruiser Dope Boy
Pure Colour by Sheila Heti
How I Met Funko Werpy and Saved the World (Sort of) by Liam Temple and Sheila Heti
Chainsaw Poems and Other Poems (2020) by Giacomo Pope
Where the Wild Ladies Are (2020) by Aoko Matsuda
The Secret of Scent (2006) by Luca Turin
Prehistory Decoded (2019) by Martin Sweatman
***but did you die? by Precious Okoyomon
Cosmogony (2021) by Lucy Ives
Black Glitter (2018) by Bree Jo'ann
Hidden Truth, Forbidden Knowledge (2006) by Steven Greer
The Loneliness of the Long-Distance Cartoonist (2020) by Adrian Tomine
Sad Janet (2020) by Lucie Britsch
Regenerate (2020) by Sayer Ji
Her Lesser Work (2021) by Elizabeth Ellen
Ketchup by Sam Pink
Ancient Aliens and JFK (2018) by Mike Bara
50 Barn Poems (2019) by Zac Smith
How to Do Nothing (2019) by Jenny Odell
Acknowledged: A Perspective on the Matters of UFOs, Aliens and Crop Circles (2019) by Andrew Johnson
NOON (2021) edited by Diane Williams
The Mystery of Utsuro-Bune (2019) by Shoichi Kamon
***Childhood's End (1953) by Arthur C. Clarke
Schoolyard UFO Encounters (2019) by Preston Dennett
The Phoenix Protocol (2020) by August Dunning
2019
There There (2018) by Tommy Orange
Trauma in Metro by Theo Thimo
**Childhood’s End (1953) by Arthur C. Clarke
Manners, Customs, and Conditions of North American Indians, Vol. I (1844) by George Catlin
True Love by Sarah Gerard
9/11: Finding the Truth (2011) by Andrew Johnson
Facing Hawai'i’s Future: Essential Information about GMOs (2012) by Hawai'i SEED
Manazuru (2010) by Hiromi Kawakami
Love Is a Derangement by Kristen Iskandrian
9/11: Holding the Truth (2017) by Andrew Johnson
Sirius (1944) by Olaf Stapledon
Secrets In the Solar System: Gatekeepers On Earth (2017) by Andrew Johnson
Best-Loved Chinese Proverbs (1995) by Theodora Lau
*Taking Care (1982) by Joy Williams
Bluets (2009) by Maggie Nelson
Acid Hype: American News Media and the Psychedelic Experience (2015) by Stephen Siff
Loudermilk or The Real Poet or The Origin of the World (2019) by Lucy Ives
Finding the Secret Space Programme (2018) by Andrew Johnson
The Hermit (2016) by Lucy Ives
Climate Change and Global Warming Exposed (2017) by Andrew Johnson
NOON (2019) edited by Diane Williams
Woods and Clouds Interchangeable (2019) by Michael Earl Craig
Foghorn Leghorn (2019) by Big Bruiser Dope Boy
The Cosmic Web: Mysterious Architecture of the Universe (2016) by J. Richard Gott
Aug 9 - Fog (2019) by Kathryn Scanlan
Feed (2002) by M.T. Anderson
Wizard: The Life and Times of Nikola Tesla (1996) by Marc. J. Seifer
Try (1994) by Dennis Cooper
The Book of Judith (2019) by Willis Plummer
American Before (2019) by Graham Hancock
Soft Split (2015) by Szilvia Molnar
Wait Till You See Me Dance (2017) by Deb Olin Unferth
God Jr. (2005) by Dennis Cooper
Closer (1989) by Dennis Cooper
Wise Traditions vol. 20/1 (2019) edited by Sally Fallon Morell
Revolution: The Year I Fell in Love and Went to Join the War (2011) by Deb Olin Unferth
The Ten Loves of Nishino (2019) by Hiromi Kawakami
Time Loops: Precognition, Retrocausation, and the Unconscious (2018) by Eric Wargo
Sleepwalking to Armageddon: The Threat of Nuclear Annihilation (2017) edited by Helen Caldicott
Joseph Levy Escapes Death (2019) by Rick Strassman
Mysteries of Time and Space (1974) by Brad Steiger
Ninety-Nine Stories of God (2013) by Joy Williams
Mind Time: The Temporal Factor in Consciousness (2004) by Benjamin Libet
Calypso (2018) by David Sedaris
Serpent in the Sky: The High Wisdom of Ancient Egypt (1979) by John Anthony West
Bad Behavior (1988) by Mary Gaitskill
*Mindbending: The Hutchison Files: 1981 to 1995 (2009) by George Hathaway
**Minor Robberies (2007) by Deb Olin Unferth
Parade (2019) by Hiromi Kawakami
The Friend (2018) by Sigrid Nunez
Animals Eat Each Other (2018) by Elle Nash
The Hidden History of the Human Race (1999) by Michael A. Cremo & Richard L. Thompson
***Like Life (1990) by Lorrie Moore
The Novelist by Jordan Castro
Because They Wanted To (1997) by Mary Gaitskill
The Chalice and the Blade in Chinese Culture (1995) by Mia Jiayin, editor
In Praise of Nothing: An Exploration of Daoist Fundamental Ontology (2011) by Ellen Marie Chen
Big Brain: The Origins and Future of Human Intelligence (2009) by Gary Lynch & Richard Granger
Model Homes (2004) by Wayne Koestenbaum
Mitz (1998) by Sigrid Nunez
How to End the Autism Epidemic (2018) by J.B. Handey
Give it to the Grand Canyon (2019) by Noah Cicero
July Diary (2019) by Gabrielle Bell
Barn 8 (2019) by Deb Olin Unferth
The Structure of Language (2012) by Rachel Grenon
*Bugs, Bowels, and Behavior (2013) edited by Teri Arranga
*Any Easy Intimacy (2005) by Jeffrey Brown
The Earth…But Not As We Know It (2019) by Andrew Johnson
When Humans Nearly Vanished (2018) by Donald R. Prothero
From the Realms of the Ancestors: An Anthology in Honor of Marija Gimbutas (1996)
2018
When Watched (2016) by Leopoldine Core
The Book of Formation (2017) by Ross Simonini
A Mind of Your Own (2016) by Kelly Brogan
The Garbage Times/White Ibis (2018) by Sam Pink
A Girl’s Guide to Personal Hygiene (2018) by Tallulah Pomeroy
Todd (2018) by Andrew Weatherhead
My Year of Rest and Relaxation (2018) by Ottessa Moshfegh
Animals and Psychedelics (2002) by Giorgio Samorini
Tonight I’m Someone Else (2018) by Chelsea Hodson
TiHKAL (1997) by Alexander Shulgin & Ann Shulgin
EarthBound (2014) by Ken Baumann
Native Use of Fish in Hawaii (1982) by Margaret Titcomb
Fire from Ice: Searching for the Truth Behind the Cold Fusion Furor (1991) by Eugene F. Mallove
High Priest (1968) by Timothy Leary
Where the Gods Reign: People and Plants of the Colombian Amazon (1988) by Richard Evans Schultes
All Our Happy Days Are Stupid (2015) by Sheila Heti
Communication and Noncommunication by Cephalopods (1985) by Martin Moynihan
Nature Documentary (2018) by Noah Cicero
The Guardians (2012) by Sarah Manguso
300 Arguments (2017) by Sarah Manguso
Peyote (1971) by Alice Marriott & Carol K. Rachlin
Military Mind Control: A Story of Trauma and Recovery (2009) by Colin A. Ross
How to Change Your Mind (2018) by Michael Pollan
Nature & Humanity Poems (2016) by Yuna Winter
Hard to Admit and Harder to Escape (2007) by Sarah Manguso
Kiowa Years: A Study in Culture Impact (1968) by Alice Marriott
Magic Medicine (2018) by Cody Johnson
A Really Good Day (2017) by Ayelet Waldman
Profiles of the Future (1962) by Arthur C. Clarke
Sunshine State (2017) by Sarah Gerard
American Assassination (2004) by Don Trent Jacobs & James Fetzer
Unstable Neighborhood Rabbit (2018) by Mikko Harvey
A Hummock in the Malookas (1995) by Matthew Rohrer
Mindbending: The Hutchison Files: 1981 to 1995 (2009) by George D. Hathaway
The Lonesome Bodybuilder (2018) by Yukiko Motoya
Psilocybin Mushrooms of the World (1996) by Paul Stamets
Liveblog (2018) by Megan Boyle
**i will never be beautiful enough to make us beautiful together (2013) by Mira Gonzalez
The Ice-Cream Man and Other Stories by Sam Pink
Vanishing Twins (2018) by Leah Dieterich
Alphabetical Diary by Sheila Heti
Tao Te Ching (1993), translated by Stephen Addiss and Stanley Lombardo
Indians of the Four Corners: The Anasazi and Their Pueblo Descendants (1952) by Alice Marriott
Raymond Carver’s What We Talk About When We Talk About Love (2018) by Brian Evenson
A Guide to Health (1921) by Mahatma Gandhi
Dance Around the Sun: The Life of Mary Little Bear Inkanish (1977) by Alice Marriott & Carol K. Rachlin
The Fat of the Land (1946) by Vilhjálmur Stefánsson
Tom Sawyer (2018) by Joseph Grantham
**When God Was a Woman (1976) by Merlin Stone
Hunters of the Great North (1922) by Vilhjalmur Stefansson
Anatomy of an Epidemic (2010) by Robert Whitaker
$50,000 by Andrew Weatherhead
Cherry (2018) by Nico Walker
Record of a Night Too Brief (2017) by Hiromi Kawakami
Essays and Fictions (2018) by Brad Phillips
Imaginary Museums by Nicolette Polek
99 Poems to Cure Whatever’s Wrong with You or Create the Problems You Need (2019) by Sam Pink
The Nakano Thrift Shop (2017) by Hiromi Kawakami
Before Silent Spring: Pesticides and Public Health in Pre-DDT America (1974) by James Whorton
Zhuangzi: The Essential Writings (2009) translated by Brook Ziporyn
This is about the Body, the Mind, the Soul, the World, Time, and Fate (1990) by Diane Williams
A Thousand Golden Arms (2018) by Anthony Matturro
Manners, Customs, and Conditions of North American Indians, Vol. II (1844) by George Catlin
Bonjour Philippine by Sheila Heti
The Milk of Dreams (2017) by Leonora Carrington
Deviant Propulsion (2006) by CAConrad
The Archaeology of Ancient Turkey (1978) by James Mellaart
2017
Ice Age (2001) by John & Mary Gribbin
The First Three Minutes (1977) by Steven Weinberg
Seven Clues to the Origin of Life (1985) by A.G. Cairns-Smith
Kangaroo Notebook (1991) by Kobo Abe
In the Sleep Room: The Story of the CIA Brainwashing Experiments in Canada (1988) by Anne Collins
The CIA Doctors: Human Rights Violations By American Psychiatrists (2006) by Colin A. Ross
*Person/a (2017) by Elizabeth Ellen
God Box (2017) by Mallory Whitten
Motherest (2017) by Kristen Iskandrian
Remote Viewers: The Secret History of America’s Psychic Spies (1997) by Jim Schnabel
Thrown (2014) by Kerry Howley
The Kingdom of Fungi (2013) by Jens H. Petersen
Neurotransmissions: Essays on Psychedelics from Breaking Convention (2015)
Nourishing Fats: Why We Need Animal Fats for Health and Happiness (2017) by Sally Fallon Morell
Sacred Mushrooms of the Goddess (2006) by Carl A. P. Ruck
**Good Morning, Midnight (1939) by Jean Rhys
My World: Ramblings of an Aging Gutter Punk (2000) by Jeff Ott
Smile Please (1979) by Jean Rhys
White Ibis (2018?) by Sam Pink
literally show me a healthy person (2017) by Darcie Wilder
Caca Dolce (2017) by Chelsea Martin
Move Your DNA (2014) by Katy Bowman
The Leopard’s Tale: Revealing the Mysteries of Catalhoyuk (2006) by Ian Hodder
Pottenger’s Cats: A Study in Nutrition (1983) by Francis M. Pottenger
The Others (2017) by Matthew Rohrer
Ajebota (2016) by Precious Okoyomon
Imagine Wanting Only This (2017) by Kristen Radtke
Tending the Wild (2005) by M. Kat Anderson
Adam’s Summer Purgatory, 2008 (2013) by Adam Humphreys
Ginkgo: The Tree That Time Forgot (2013) by Peter Crane
The Company (2003) by John Micklethwait & Adrian Wooldridge
Molecules Of Emotion: The Science Behind Mind-Body Medicine (1997) by Candace Pert
Cindy & Erica’s Obsession to Solve Today’s Health Care Crisis (2017) by Stephanie Seneff
*Motherest (2017) by Kristen Iskandrian
The Sarah Book (2017) by Scott McClanahan
Amatka (2017) by Karin Tidbeck
Sorry to Disrupt the Peace (2017) by Patty Yumi Cottrell
The Honeymoon Stage (2017) by Oscar Schwartz
Tripping With Allah (2013) by Michael Muhammad Knight
**Bed (2007) by Tao Lin
Eating on the Wild Side (2013) by Jo Robinson
***you are a little bit happier than i am (2006) by Tao Lin
Welfare by Steve Anwyll
Motherhood by Sheila Heti
**Eeeee Eee Eeee (2007) by Tao Lin
Where Did the Towers Go? Evidence of Directed Free-energy Technology on 9/11 (2010) by Judy Wood
On the Abolition of All Political Parties (1943) by Simone Weil
**cognitive-behavioral therapy (2008) by Tao Lin
Homesick for Another World (2017) by Ottessa Moshfegh
Cool Girls Hate Their Bodies by David Fishkind
Ticknor (2005) by Sheila Heti
loss (2017) by Rachel Bell
The Big Wedding: 9/11, The Whistleblowers, and the Cover-Up (2005) by Sander Hicks
Saul Stories (2017) by Elizabeth Ellen
**Richard Yates (2010) by Tao Lin
*Cure Tooth Decay: Heal & Prevent Cavities with Nutrition (2009) by Ramiel Nagel
We Need a Horse (2011) by Sheila Heti & Clare Rojas
The Amputee’s Guide to Sex (2007) by Jillian Weise
White Hills (2016) by Chloe Stopa-Hunt
Sludge Utopia by Catherine Fatima
Vox (1992) by Nicholson Baker
*Radiation Detox: How to Support the Body’s Healing after Intense Radioactive or Radiation Exposure (2004) by Bill Bodri
Koko’s Kittens (1985) by Francine Patterson
The Untold Story of Milk: The History, Politics and Science of Nature’s Perfect Food (2009) by Ron Schmid
Nollywood (2017) by Emily Witt
Chlorella: The Emerald Food (1984) by Dhyana Bewicke & Beverly A. Potter
I, Parrot (2017) by Deb Olin Unferth & Elizabeth Haidle
**Taipei (2013) by Tao Lin
The Health Benefits of Tobacco (2004) by William Campbell Douglass
i fell in love today by Precious Okoyomon
The Use of LSD in Psychotherapy (1960) edited by Harold A. Abramson
Wide Sargasso Sea (1966) by Jean Rhys
Sunscreens - Biohazard: Treat As Hazardous Waste (2011) by Elizabeth Plourde
A Pale View of Hills (1982) by Kazuo Ishiguro
Whitewash: The Story of a Weed Killer, Cancer, and the Corruption of Science (2017) by Carey Gillam
Gut and Psychology Syndrome (2010) by Natasha Campbell-McBride
Get Out Your Hankies (2016) by Gabrielle Bell
Everything Is Flammable (2017) by Gabrielle Bell
Trip: Psychedelics, Alienation, and Change (2018) by Tao Lin
Slingshot to the Juggernaut (2011) by Sander Hicks
Breathe to Heal: Break Free From Asthma (2016) by Sasha Yakovleva
The Garden of Fertility (2004) by Katie Singer
My Inventions: The Autobiography of Nikola Tesla (1919) by Nikola Tesla
Shut Your Mouth and Save Your Life (1869) by George Catlin
2016
Breaking Open the Head (2002) by Daniel Pinchbeck
The Revolution Will Not Be Microwaved (2006) by Sandor Ellix Katz
Black Cloud (2014) by Juliet Escoria
Thank You (2015) by Zachary German
How to Play the Piano (1922) by Mark Hambourg
Beating Ankylosing Spondylitis Naturally (2014) by Scott A. Johnson
The Fractalist (2012) by Benoit Mandelbrot
Silent Spring (1962) by Rachel Carson
Starvation Mode (2015) by Elissa Washuta
LSD: My Problem Child (1979) by Albert Hofmann
A Short History of Nearly Everything (2003) by Bill Bryson
The Myth of Matriarchal Prehistory (2000) by Cynthia Eller
The Doors of Perception (1954) by Aldous Huxley
Heaven and Hell (1956) by Aldous Huxley
Shroom (2007) by Andy Letcher
your glass head against the brick parade of now whats (2016) by Sam Pink
Rangoon (1970) by Frederick Barthelme
Private Citizens (2016) by Tony Tulathimutte
The Yage Letters (1963) by William S. Burroughs and Allen Ginsberg
Merlin Stone Remembered (2014) by Axelrod, Thomas, Schneir, Orenstein
Logue (2015) edited by David Fishkind
**Why Did I Ever (2001) by Mary Robison
*Life Itself (1981) by Francis Crick
*Childhood’s End (1953) by Arthur C. Clarke
**Anagrams (1986) by Lorrie Moore
The Hatred of Poetry (2016) by Ben Lerner
Future Sex (2016) by Emily Witt
Supervolcano (2007) by John Savino & Marie D. Jones
The Sixth Extinction (2014) by Elizabeth Kolbert
Sisters of the Extreme (2000) edited by Cynthia Palmer & Michael Horowitz
The Art of Seeing (1942) by Aldous Huxley
Alone with Other People (2013) by Gabby Bess
Nourishing Broth (2014) by Sally Fallon Morell & Kaayla T. Daniel
The Science of Marijuana (2008) by Leslie L. Iversen
The Neanderthals Rediscovered (2015) by Dimitra Papagianni & Michael Morse
Surviving Evil: CIA Mind Control Experiments in Vermont (2014) by Karen Wetmore
Empty Beds: A History of Vermont State Hospital (1988) by Marsha R. Kincheloe & Herbert G. Hunt
*When God Was A Woman (1976) by Merlin Stone
The Living Goddesses (1999) by Marija Gimbutas
Earliest Civilizations of the Near East (1965) by James Mellaart
*Magicians of the Gods (2015) by Graham Hancock
The Salmon Mysteries: A Guidebook to a Reimagining of the Eleusinian Mysteries (2010) by Kim Antieau
Timaeus and Critias (2008) by Plato, Desmond Lee translation
Çatal Hüyük: A Neolithic Town in Anatolia (1967) by James Mellaart
An Electronic Silent Spring (2014) by Katie Singer
The Rock Paintings of Tassili (1963) by Jean-Dominique Lajoux
Loving the Ocean Won’t Keep it from Killing You (2016) by Rachel Bell
**Life Itself (1981) by Francis Crick
LSD and the Divine Scientist (2013) by Albert Hofmann
The Girl with Brown Hair (2011) by Stacey Levine
On Love and Barley (1985) by Basho
Bugs, Bowels, and Behavior (2013) by [various]
Missing Microbes (2014) by Martin Blaser
*Wide Eyed (2005) by Trinie Dalton
*Color of Darkness (1957) by James Purdy
Surrounded by Friends (2015) by Matthew Rohrer
*Minor Robberies (2007) by Deb Olin Unferth
Hiding Man: A Biography of Donald Barthelme (2009) by Tracy Daugherty
Gamelife (2015) by Michael W. Clune
Blood and Soap (2004) by Linh Dinh
Women (2014) by Chloe Caldwell
Strange Weather in Tokyo (2013) by Hiromi Kawakami
Vicky Swanky Is a Beauty (2012) by Diane Williams
NOON 15 (2014) by Diane Williams (editor)
*Break It Down (1986) by Lydia Davis
The Sunnier Side and Other Stories (2013) by Charles R. Jackson
The Twenty-four Hour Mind (2012) by Rosalind Cartwright
Survival of the Sickest (2008) by Sharon Moalem, Jonathan Prince
The Two Kinds of Decay (2008) by Sarah Manguso
Ongoingness: The End of a Diary (2015) by Sarah Manguso
The Title Of This Book Is An Inside Joke (2015) by Sophia Katz
The Road to Eleusis (1978) by R. Gordon Wasson, Albert Hofmann, Carl A. P. Ruck
The Bonobo and the Atheist (2013) by Frans de Waal
On Becoming Human (1981) by Nancy Makepeace Tanner
My Life with the Chimpanzees (1988) by Jane Goodall
Cannabis (2015) by Chris Duvall
*The Invisible Landscape (1975) by Terence McKenna & Dennis McKenna
*Synchronicity: An Acausal Connecting Principle (1952) by Carl Jung
*Star Maker (1937) by Olaf Stapledon
Manuscript Remains, Volume I: Early Manuscripts (1804–1818) by Arthur Schopenhauer
Parerga and Paralipomena (1851) by Arthur Schopenhauer, E.F.J. Payne translation
Schopenhauer: A Biography (2014) by David E. Cartwright
After the Trip (2014, 2nd edition) by Krystle Cole
Lysergic (2014, 3rd edition) by Krystle Cole
Chopin In Paris (1999) by Tad Szulc
welcome to your new life with you being happy (2015) by Rachel Bell
Fernando Pessoa (1997) by Maria José de Lancastre & Antonio Tabucchi
The Saga of Dazai Osamu (1985) by Phyllis I. Lyons
In Search of Chopin (1951) by Alfred Cortot
The Folded Clock (2015) by Heidi Julavits
The Garbage Times by Sam Pink
Person(a) by Elizabeth Ellen
Everyone Thinks I’m a Fakir (2014) by Claudia Apablaza
Binary Star (2015) by Sarah Gerard
Speak (2015) by Louisa Hall
The Carriage House (2013) by Louisa Hall
Did You Ever Have a Family (2015) by Bill Clegg
The Message of the Sphinx (1996) by Graham Hancock & Robert Bauval
My Documents (2015) by Alejandro Zambra
Junky: The Definitive Text of “Junk” (2012) by William S. Burroughs
Killing and Dying (2015) by Adrian Tomine
Reality Hunger (2010) by David Shields
Magicians of the Gods (2015) by Graham Hancock
Hacker, Hoaxer, Whistleblower, Spy (2014) by Gabriella Coleman
*True Hallucinations (1993) by Terence McKenna
You Too Can Have a Body Like Mine (2015) by Alexandra Kleeman
Florence Gordon (2015) by Brian Morton
Toxic Beauty: How Cosmetics and Personal-Care Products Endanger Your Health (2009) by Samuel S. Epstein
2014
Synchronicity (1960) by Carl Jung
Food of the Gods (1992) by Terence McKenna
The Archaic Revival (1992) by Terence McKenna
*True Hallucinations (1993) by Terence McKenna
Psilocybin: Magic Mushroom Grower’s Guide (1986) by Terence & Dennis McKenna
The Invisible Landscape (1975) by Terence & Dennis McKenna
Chaos, Creativity, and Cosmic Consciousness (1992) by McKenna, Abraham, Sheldrake
The Evolutionary Mind (1998) by McKenna, Abraham, Sheldrake
The Chalice and the Blade (1987) by Riane Eisler
When God Was a Woman (1976) by Merlin Stone
The Butterfly Hunter (2008) by Klea McKenna
Hallucinogens and Shamanism (1983) edited by Michael Harner
Interstellar Communication: Scientific Perspectives (1974) by Ponnamperuma & Cameron
The Yage Letters (1963) by William Burroughs & Allen Ginsburg
DMT: The Spirit Molecule (2000) by Rick Strassman
The Creative Explosion: An Inquiry into the Origins of Art and Religion (1982) by John E. Pfeiffer
Mind Children (1988) by Hans Moravec
Worlds-Antiworlds: Antimatter in Cosmology (1966) by Hannes Alfvén
Childhood’s End (1953) by Arthur C. Clarke
The City and the Stars (1956) by Arthur C. Clarke
Valis (1981) by Philip K. Dick
My Prizes (2009) by Thomas Bernhard
Fukushima Meltdown & Modern Radiation (2011) by John Apsley & Suzanne Carroll
Radiation Protective Foods (2012) by Sara Shannon
Radiation Detox (2004) by William Bodri
Crisis Without End (2014) by Helen Caldicott (editor)
Cure Tooth Decay (2010) by Ramiel Nagel
Nutrition and Physical Degeneration (1939) by Weston A. Price
Nourishing Traditions (2000) by Sally Fallon Morell
Enzyme Nutrition (1985) by Edward Howell
Food Enzymes for Health & Longevity (1994) by Edward Howell
The Enzyme Factor (2007) by Hiromi Shinya
Enzymes: The Key to Health, Vol. 1 (2005) by Howard Loomis
Enzymes: The Missing Link to Health (2013) by Susan M. Lark
Depression: The Mechanical Cause (2014) by John Bergman
Wild Fermentation (2003) by Sandor Ellix Katz
Thyroid & Enzyme Nutrition (2012) by Lita Lee
Longevity Now (2013) by David Wolfe
The Biology of Belief (2005) by Bruce Lipton
Vitamin K2 and the Calcium Paradox (2012) by Kate Rheaume-Bleue
Good Germs, Bad Germs (2007) by Jessica Snyder Sachs
An Epidemic of Absence (2012) by Moises Velasquez-Manoff
The Art of Fermentation (2012) by Sandor Ellix Katz
*Writing in General and the Short Story in Particular (1977) by Rust L. Hills
2013 (incomplete list, not in order)
True Hallucinations (1993) by Terence McKenna
The Brotherhood of the Screaming Abyss (2012) by Dennis McKenna
Star Maker (1937) by Olaf Stapledon
The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind (1976) by Julian Jaynes
Left in the Dark (2008) by Graham Gynn & Tony Wright
pre-2013 (very incomplete list)
High School
Chuck Palahniuk
Kurt Vonnegut
Haruki Murakami
The End of Science by John Horgan
College
Jean Rhys
Richard Yates
Amy Hempel
Lorrie Moore
Ann Beattie
Lydia Davis
Joy Williams
The Task of This Translator (2005) by Todd Hasak-Lowy
Eating for Beauty (2002) by David Wolfe
2005-2012
Animal Liberation (1975) by Peter Singer
The Way We Eat: Why Our Food Choices Matter (2006) by Peter Singer
Serious Adverse Events: An Uncensored History of AIDS (2006) by Celia Farber
Rebecca Curtis
Deb Olin Unferth
Joy Williams
Frederick Barthelme
Japanese fiction: https://web.archive.org/web/20090816090407/http://heheheheheheheeheheheehehe.com/2009/08/japanese-eeeee-eee-eeee-kawabe-shobo.html